How I Healed My IBS, Faced My Food Anxiety, and Took Back Control of My Life

I want to share something deeply personal with you—something I’ve lived with, struggled through, and finally began to heal from. If you’ve ever felt like food was your enemy or that your body was betraying you, I see you. I’ve been there. 

It started when I was around 17. My stomach hurt constantly, and no one could figure out why. I had exploratory surgery, but doctors didn’t find anything. Over the years, the symptoms started to pile up—slowly at first, but they never stopped. 

By my 30s, I was miserable. I was dealing with horrible cystic acne, constant bloating, itchy skin and eczema, bad allergies, and a long list of other chronic medical issues. It felt like every time one symptom showed up, another one followed. Nothing made sense, and nothing was helping. 

Eventually, I started to suspect it was the food I was eating. So I did what many people do—I tried to eliminate anything that caused pain. The problem was, everything seemed to hurt my stomach. I got to a point where I was basically living on salad, and even that didn’t help. 

I saw doctor after doctor, but the responses I got were beyond frustrating. One gastroenterologist told me, “You should eat peppermint.” That was the advice. Another medical professional gave me a strange liquid concoction that I had an allergic reaction to. When I brought it up, she told me to keep taking it anyway because “it will help.” That was the last time I saw her. 

At one point, I even had my gallbladder removed because they told me it wasn’t functioning properly and removing it would fix everything. Spoiler alert: it didn’t. It made things worse. 

Then, in November 2020, everything began to spiral. That’s when I entered perimenopause, though I didn’t know it at the time. I started experiencing a lot of strange symptoms. The first one was dizziness—so intense I ended up in the ER. They told me I took too many vitamins at once and to wait it out. But the dizziness didn’t go away. It got worse. 

That was the start of my fear around taking any kind of pill or vitamin. The dizziness finally passed, but then I went through a shaking phase. I would lie down and experience full-body tremors—my body would just shake on its own. I began to feel this pulsating wave of energy moving through me, almost like an electrical current starting from the inside and radiating outward. 

I’d feel these shockwaves run from my head to my feet, over and over. The top of my head felt like it split open—hot, wide, and intense. I felt awful, but I couldn’t explain exactly what I was feeling. I just knew it was bad. 

I had no idea what was going on, and between November 2020 and April 2021, I ended up in the ER 13 times, one of those times by ambulance. 

I also experienced these episodes that felt like seizures, where I’d see strange visuals—like scenes from another world—but as soon as the episode ended, I couldn’t remember what I saw. I had two brain scans done, and both came back normal. The doctor called them seizures, but admitted there was no evidence I’d actually had one. 

That’s when I started to realize some of what I was experiencing wasn’t just medical—it was a massive spiritual awakening. The energy pulses, the crown chakra feeling wide open, the strange visual seizures, and the emotional intensity—I believe it was a combination of awakening energy and perimenopause symptoms all hitting at once. 

Around this same time, I also started having panic attacks, but I didn’t know that’s what they were. I had never had one before. I truly thought I was having an anaphylactic reaction to the food I was eating. My body would go into full fight-or-flight. I was terrified. 

In just 9 months, I went to the ER 13 times, thinking I was dying. I began to associate food with panic attacks. I became afraid to eat. I completely stopped eating altogether for a while and lost a massive amount of weight. My skin was hanging off my arms. 

That’s when I went to the psychic. I wanted to know if this was a spiritual awakening—and she told me that it was. But she also told me to see a naturopath, and I’m so glad I did. 

The naturopath ran food tests and helped me eliminate all the foods that were making things worse. She also introduced a powerful probiotic, which I still take to this day and will continue to take for life. 

As I eliminated bad foods, I started to feel better—at least on some levels. I was still deep in my spiritual awakening and the panic attacks were intense, but I had some relief physically. The problem was that my brain had now associated food with panic attacks. I truly believed eating was going to kill me. That connection got so strong it developed into full food anxiety. 

During the elimination process, I only ate food I trusted. That meant chicken, rice, and some vegetables. I cut out everything: wheat, dairy, eggs, soy, corn, food dyes, high fructose corn syrup, chemicals—everything. I ate only whole foods. Reintroducing food took a long time. 

Eventually, I started getting better. My IBS, which I had struggled with for over 20 years, finally went away. 

But the damage from the panic attacks and anxiety was still there. The trauma was deep. I had intense driving anxiety, especially on highways, bridges, and weirdly, in the left-hand turning lane. That made no sense—I had driven across the country multiple times and even worked jobs that required driving. I had never had an issue with it before. But now? I would panic. 

That’s when I realized this was now PTSD. My body had learned to respond to certain situations with fear. My subconscious mind had stored these panic reactions. So whenever I got into those same situations—food, driving, bridges—my brain would scream, “Freak out now!” 

But I know how the subconscious mind works. I know hypnosis, psychology, Reiki, and meditation. So I started using those tools on myself. I began removing the fear from my energy. Because that’s what anxiety really is—fear. 

I visualized the fear as dark, muddy energy. I pulled it out of my chakras, my aura, my thoughts—over and over again. I replaced it with calming, peaceful energy. It took a while, but it worked. 

The driving anxiety and food anxiety were the hardest. I realized that every time I encountered a trigger, it wasn’t the moment that was causing the panic—it was my subconscious memory of what had happened before. My mind had linked those events to danger. 

So I came up with a way to reprogram my subconscious. I started by repeating the situation over and over in meditation. For bridges, I would sit and say, “I love bridges” again and again. Then I’d visualize myself on the bridge. I would get anxious—but I stayed with it. I let myself feel it until it faded. 

Eventually, I focused on the intrusive thoughts themselves. For me, it was the bridge collapsing. So I added a twist. If the bridge falls? My car flies—just like in Harry Potter. 

I started using what I call Matrix tactics against the random fear thoughts in my head. 

• If I saw myself falling from a skyscraper, I gave myself a parachute. 

• If I thought a bullet train would hit me, I created a force field. 

• If the bridge collapsed, I made my car hover. 

These visual tricks helped. My bridge anxiety is now 90% gone. I'm still working on highways and the left lane, but they’re getting better too. 

The biggest challenge now is still food. I haven’t figured out the right phrase or visual yet to get past that. I don’t want to say “Food is safe,” because sometimes it’s not. I don’t want to lie to my subconscious. If I say “Eggs are safe” but I’m actually sensitive to them, it backfires. 

That’s the next layer of healing. 

All of this inspired me to create my Master Your Fears course. I want to teach people how to face their fears using meditation, hypnosis, and affirmations. Because fear lives deep—in the subconscious and in your soul. Some fears are from this life. Others are from past lives. 

If you can remove the root cause of your fear—whether it’s emotional, mental, or energetic—you can finally start to heal. Once it’s out of your system, that part of your energy can reset. That’s how you dissolve the fear at its core. 

I also created an affirmations course to help rewrite your subconscious mind using deep meditation and short affirmations. These tools helped me—and they can help you too. 

Now, I’m working on a complete, in-depth program that shows you how to remove fear and rewire your subconscious mind so you can live with more calm, clarity, and peace. 

That’s the goal. 

I don’t want to feel anxious just because I had a tiny piece of egg—but that happened today. So I’ll keep working on myself until that fear is gone and you can do the same. 

If you use self-hypnosis, affirmations, meditation, and a little imagination, you can take your power back. You don’t have to live with fear forever. 

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